Absinthe Party at the Fly Honey Warehouse

I've always wanted to go to Europe. Yeah, I know it's awfully random to be thinking about that on Halloween, but I'm listening to a Minus The Bear song about Europe and I can't stop thinking about what an adventure it would be. I had a chance to go a few years ago when I was 18, but it just didn't come together, and I feel like I really missed out. It's like that part in Goodwill Hunting where Sean (Robin Williams) tells Will (Matt Damon) about how he has all of the knowledge in the world, but none of the real life experience to go with it. "If I asked you about art, you'd probably give me the skinny on every art book ever written. Michelangelo, you know a lot about him. Life's work, political aspirations, him and the pope, sexual orientations, the whole works, right? But I'll bet you can't tell me what it smells like in the Sistine Chapel." I fully intend to to visit the Sistine Chapel one day, and if for some reason I ever run into Robin Williams or Matt Damon, I'll tell them how it smells. Until tomorrow...

Where Is My Mind?

I have a hard time with the idea of "family" in the traditional sense. I've always been there for my brother, mom, and dad, but my relationships with them have always felt like they're missing something. It should be noted that I'm an extreme idealist, and whenever I imagine something in my head it's perfect, so I'm sure that's swaying my view a fair amount. I've always had friends that I could talk to about almost anything, which I feel like I can't do with my family. Maybe I just feel like my family needs to be perfect because of my idealism? Or maybe I've been instilled an unrealistic idea of how a family is supposed to be? Whatever the case, from now on, I'm just going to take them as I see them. They all have flaws that really bother me, and at times, get me frustrated beyond belief, but I guess I'm going to do my best to let them be themselves, and love them anyways. It's hard for me to do that, I want the best for all of them, but I think if I take a backseat, and don't get so involved with their affairs, I'll be able to appreciate them more. Who knows? Maybe our relationships will be great after all of this. As of 12:00 am Sunday, Operation Family Matters is commencing. Until tomorrow...

If You Want to Sing Out, Sing Out

A few months ago, the band I was playing in fizzled out. It was really frustrating because three out of the four of us had spent  year and a half refining our songs and really getting our sound dialed in, and then out of left field, it was over. I've had a lot of time on my hands these past few months, and I've spent a lot of that time really trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I asked myself what I would do if I won the lottery, and came to the conclusion that I would still try to make it in the music industry. I'm taking baby steps towards trying to make that dream a reality. I'm in the process of applying to Musician's Institute in Hollywood to major in bass performance, and I'm getting ready to record some songs with a few friends and hopefully have a band come together through those recordings. It's nerve racking. I've never really known what I wanted to do, I just kind of went with the flow of the people around me. I don't know where I got that laissez-faire attitude, but it recently went away completely. I realized the only fish that swim with the current are the dead ones. I figured that I owe it to myself to try to make my life as great as I can, and I can't do that putting in 14 hour days at an aerospace company. There's a huge chance that this will all blow up in my face at the end. I could end up with a degree in a field that's too specialized, and maybe the band I'm hoping to form will never get to tour or play in front of the crowds we want to, but it's got to be worth the chance. I can't turn into my parents at age 20, so off I go into the great unknown. Until tomorrow... 

Lake Michigan

This blog will be the world from my point of view. My opinions will be biased, my outlooks will be distorted, and my sarcasm will be prevalent. My daily updates will range from things I find important or stupid, to books and movies that I've recently enjoyed, and everything else in between. This blog will be all over the place. It will be unorganized, unconventional, and uncategorized, but if you can bare with me, I promise it will be unbelievable. Until tomorrow...